Wednesday, August 17, 2016

looking for a model to test out a technique!

My girls let Mama play with my camera today. 
I am pretty excited for the ones I got.

The Julia
she hates her freckles but I absolutely adore them and pray that they never fade. I wanted to have a picture of them so I can show her just how beautiful they really are. 
With Belle it was all about textures and shadows. 

 For Stella I just wanted to so a more softer look and natural colors. I love bold and rainbows but sometimes it's fun to do the opposite of what you like just to play around with it.
I took some of Hazel and you will soon see on our Youtube channel that process and how it just wasn't going to work. I am really hoping I can get a model to try that technique out soon. message me if you have a newborn or are pregnant and would like to try something called a milk bath portrait. THEY ARE BEAUTIFUL!! but babies older than say 5 months is really not ideal for them. :( 
o well I will try something else on Hazel soon :)

Friday, August 12, 2016

6th letter to Belle

Dear Belle,
How did we get to this high of a number?
I can't wrap my head around the fact that you need 2 hands to count your age!
but enough about how sad I am about how fast time is going, you are tired of hearing it.
so I will just suck it up and talk about how proud of you I am!!

you rocked Kindergarten like it was easy!
You blew me away with how brave you were to leave my side and step out of your shell and do something big! not only did you excel in school you made lots of friends and earned a white belt in Karate AND was the loudest cheer leader in your squad!!
all my fears that first day of school you proved to me that I gave you all the tools you needed and your little wings were strong enough for me to let go.
just a little bit though.
 That big heart of yours is what I most proud of.
it truly is made of gold.
You constantly are willing to help with Hazel
you want to make sure Stella feels included
you actually listen to Julia when she want someone to talk to and you come to me if you feel like I am misunderstanding her during our many mom and preteen battles.
Daddy always feels loved and wanted because you leave him love notes all over his computer desk.
  Speaking of art.
it's still a fiery passion of yours.
I am inspired by the way you stretch yourself to try new subjects and techniques. 
I want you to know that no matter what you choose to do in life I will always support but I secretly pray that you use your talents to the fullest.
 it is such a gift you have.

 Everyday after school during our walks home you would always ask me when will you be able to ride the school bus.  because during your kindergarten year, you attended the school right down the street your wish was not made BUT starting 1st grade you will join Julia at her school and finally be able to ride the big yellow bus! I am so excited for you.

I am giving you permission to grow up.
only because the person you are growing into, I just want her to always be around!
 I love you 

Friday, July 15, 2016

a 4th letter to Stella

Dear Stella,
I can not even understand how we lived life before you came along!
You have such a wonderful personality and are driven by your desire to make everyone around you feel happy and included.
Your are so fun, funny, smart, caring and just completely lovable! 

It only takes seconds after meeting you for everyone to fall under your spell. 
You have this gift of treating each person so special 
and for that moment in time they are so special to you
 and they feel better about themselves because of your love. 
how do you do that?
I want to be more like you.

You are not a fan of any bad mood, negativity or arguments. 
you always try to break the tension with a knock knock joke or by singing "this little light of mine."
You have such a strange obsession with everything "soft"
you will cling on to anyone sitting by's shirt and rub it between your fingers while sucking your thumb. 
but if the feel of the cotton is just not perfectly soft you let the person know they should change their clothes.
If I have a head ache, you quietly say a prayer without even being asked for Jesus to make my head feel better. Thank you.
 when you have a nightmare you always blame it on the side of the bed you fell asleep on so we have to flip your pillow to the other side and untuck all the sheets and blankets
 so you can have a good dream on the "up side" of your bed.
you like to wear your shoes on the wrong feet.
and hate having your hair washed.
you love being a sister and ask every night to have a sleepover with them.
When you get excited to grit your teeth so hard they look like they will break and you make fist and shake your whole body screeching "I'M SO EXCITED!!"
you are still so tiny and fit most of Hazel's clothes! BUT no one is allowed to call you small/tiny/baby
no no no! you are Stella Jo BIG AND STRONG!
 I am having so much fun being your mom.
Time goes by so fast but I can honestly say I always made it a point to cherish every stage, phase, day, moment of your life. 
you have taught me so much these last 4 years. more than any book or class could. 
I feel incredibly blessed to be your mama.

Thank you for another amazing year!
keep growing and pushing through every obstacle
because you are so good at proving people wrong and showing that God's plan is way better than one we could come up with.
you are such a gift!

Love, MOM

Thursday, June 16, 2016

11th letter to Julia

Dear Julia,
The first part of your tenth year was by far the hardest time for me as a mother. I spent many nights on my knees begging God to give me guidance on how to be the kind of mother you needed. I wanted the right words to say the right actions to do the right ways to prove to you that you are valuable. you are wanted. you are enough. 

If I was to be honest I didn't think I would see any calm happy days where we would just enjoy each others company any time soon let alone less than a year later.

 But here we are.
 The progress you have made and the determination that you showed has made me fall in love with being your mother all over again.
 I am the greatest fan of your life.
 and as much as you hate my loud voice
 it's my job to cheer you on holding my neon sign with flashing lights and glitter.
 There is nothing you can't conquer
no mountain too big 
You are worthy
 you are wanted
  you are enough.
 never loose that fighting spirit
that drive
those big dreams
 because those battles you fought were for a reason.
You have amazing talents and gifts to give to this world.
I know I say this a lot and you might be a little numb to my words by now but trust that I mean them with my whole heart when I say that I feel incredibly honored and blessed to be your mom. 

Happy 11th!

Friday, May 13, 2016

Hazel's 18 month update!

she is a whole year and a half !!
I just can't believe it!
I am posting a few of her 18 month pictures, we had plans to do these downtown and have some cool city shots but the weather just wasn't cooperating so I found this small green house and made a mad dash to beat the rain!

to find out all the fun things she's doing now check out this video
 I posted on our youtube channel!

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