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Sunday, June 11, 2017

Julia's 12th letter

Dear Julia,
You are entering into you're last year of childhood! 
that sentence is like a punch in the gut for your mom.
 I am in denial and really don't want to post this letter or share your pictures. I am hoping that if I just bury my head in the sand, cross my fingers and beg God he will let me go back in time and relive your baby years, toddler days and kid moments. but then again I look back at all the pictures and I am reminded that we have had great time and some really really hard times.
you have come such a long way 
I am going to let you in on a very big secret here
parents are totally winging it when it come to raising kids, 
especially the first born.
we screw things up
sorry
we don't always know the best answer 
sorry
we have high expectations
not really sorry
We don't always know what to do
sorry
We will never stop
not sorry

this past year you have really made me so proud.
countless people have told me all kinds of good deeds, responsible acts and great achievements they have witnessed you do. I promise none of the hard work you have done goes unnoticed. Things are changing and as much as I miss your chunky baby cheeks or toothless grin I am so looking forward to all the big things you have ahead of you and to support you in finding God's purpose for you.
 Julia mean Youthful
to me that is 100% accurate.
your spirit and energy can be perfectly described as youthful.
you are always on the go and ready to take on more, do more and nothing scares you

 Your love of cooking as only grown
It's so nice to see you really find something you that makes you happy and interested in. plus it's a huge bonus for me. although I sometimes get a little mommy guilt that I am not doing enough and letting you just be a kid instead of cooking dinner most nights. You are really good at it!
You put a lot of pressure and importance in your school work
and that just makes me burst with pride. you have big dreams and big goals for what you want to be in the future and you have so much determination
never lose that.

 We have crossed the stage in life where you pretty much want close to nothing to do with me because you know mom is so embarrassing and really old.
which I respond with No I am not and No I am not!
When mom sings and dances in the car while your friends are in the back seat it's because I'm a teaching you that you should not be afraid of being yourself
When mom still kisses and hugs you it's teaching you that I am always going to love you even when you fight me
When mom misspells words or gets math problems wrong it teaches you that education is important and mom might need a little help ;P
When mom burns food, ruins a craft project, bleaches her shirt, locks the keys in the car, takes you to fun places but they are closed, gets lost, spills drinks, falls going up the steps, makes a complete fool of herself it all just to teach you to NEVER GIVE UP.
My heart might not be ready for all the growing up in your 12th year of life but I am excited to be right by your side through it all. I am your biggest fan. Thank you forever and ever to choosing me to be your mom. You truly have no idea how much of an impact you have made in my life. 
Year 12
here we go!
lets make this last year of childhood the best!

Happy Birthday
Love,
Mom

Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Christmas Card!


can you believe it's already time to unveil our annual Christmas card picture!?!?!?!?!
I can't!
where has 2016 gone?

Well like I have said many times I spend months brainstorming up ideas for our Christmas card and I had one in mind but then out of the corner of my eye on my way home from a photo session I spotted in our neighbors garbage was this antique school desk!!!!!!!! 
my heart stopped
literally!
I HAD to have it!
Brian shook his head and said "what? why? where? no! do we have to?"
I ignored his negativeness. I knew this was a once in a lifetime chance and if I passed it up I would regret it the rest of my life!
seriously.
so the little weak women I am marched across the street and picked that bad boy right up and carried it up the steps and into my home.
I am not ashamed one bit!!
then I rubbed it in Brian's face a few minutes later when I showed him how much people are selling exact replicas of this beauty on eBay and he zipped his lip up fast.

long story

so my Christmas card plans changed and I couldn't be happier!
without further ado
Christmas picture 2016...............

(the dresses that Belle and Stella are wearing were actual MY Christmas dresses form when I was little!)
 Christmas card 2016.....
I love it!!
can not wait to mail them out!
If you want a copy let me know your address
plus I would love to get some cards from you so let me know if you need my address!!!!!

Friday, November 11, 2016

A 2nd letter to Hazel

Dear Hazel,

you are so simple but so complex at the same time. You keep me on my toes but I know if I tell you not to do something you will listen. You are calm but fierce. You are quite but stand up for yourself when needed. You are girly but love to roll up your sleeves and get dirty. you are loving but always on guard. you are not a show off but know every trick. you are a mama's girl but want to be just like Daddy. You are helpful but think it's fun to make a mess.
 Watching that brain of yours figure things out and put the pieces together is in my top favorite things to do. you are so determined. absolutely nothing gets in your way when you have an idea. you are fearless. you are a born to be leader.
 My life would be so boring without you.
 you have Julia's spit fire attitude
Belle's caring heart
Stella's sweetness
and yet you are completely you.
 you have a passion for working.
I know it sounds crazy! I never knew another 2 year old that just wants to work.
 cleaning, fixing, helping
you never stop. you don't even have a favorite cartoon because you never really take a break from activities to sit and watch a show or two. But your not hyper, just enjoy being busy.
 you don't get overly excited but you are a very happy girl.
those big blue eyes still stops me in my tracks!
Happy 2nd birthday
I love you Hazelnut.
  Daddy's Winnie. 
Hazie
Haze
Hazel Gwendolyn

Love,
Mom

Wednesday, August 17, 2016

looking for a model to test out a technique!

 
My girls let Mama play with my camera today. 
I am pretty excited for the ones I got.

The Julia
she hates her freckles but I absolutely adore them and pray that they never fade. I wanted to have a picture of them so I can show her just how beautiful they really are. 
With Belle it was all about textures and shadows. 


 For Stella I just wanted to so a more softer look and natural colors. I love bold and rainbows but sometimes it's fun to do the opposite of what you like just to play around with it.
I took some of Hazel and you will soon see on our Youtube channel that process and how it just wasn't going to work. I am really hoping I can get a model to try that technique out soon. message me if you have a newborn or are pregnant and would like to try something called a milk bath portrait. THEY ARE BEAUTIFUL!! but babies older than say 5 months is really not ideal for them. :( 
o well I will try something else on Hazel soon :)

Friday, August 12, 2016

6th letter to Belle

Dear Belle,
6
How did we get to this high of a number?
I can't wrap my head around the fact that you need 2 hands to count your age!
but enough about how sad I am about how fast time is going, you are tired of hearing it.
so I will just suck it up and talk about how proud of you I am!!

you rocked Kindergarten like it was easy!
You blew me away with how brave you were to leave my side and step out of your shell and do something big! not only did you excel in school you made lots of friends and earned a white belt in Karate AND was the loudest cheer leader in your squad!!
all my fears that first day of school you proved to me that I gave you all the tools you needed and your little wings were strong enough for me to let go.
just a little bit though.
 That big heart of yours is what I most proud of.
it truly is made of gold.
You constantly are willing to help with Hazel
you want to make sure Stella feels included
you actually listen to Julia when she want someone to talk to and you come to me if you feel like I am misunderstanding her during our many mom and preteen battles.
Daddy always feels loved and wanted because you leave him love notes all over his computer desk.
  Speaking of art.
it's still a fiery passion of yours.
I am inspired by the way you stretch yourself to try new subjects and techniques. 
I want you to know that no matter what you choose to do in life I will always support but I secretly pray that you use your talents to the fullest.
 it is such a gift you have.

 Everyday after school during our walks home you would always ask me when will you be able to ride the school bus.  because during your kindergarten year, you attended the school right down the street your wish was not made BUT starting 1st grade you will join Julia at her school and finally be able to ride the big yellow bus! I am so excited for you.


I am giving you permission to grow up.
only because the person you are growing into, I just want her to always be around!
 I love you 
love,
MAMA
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