While dodging cannon balls and holding my breath as children splash freezing cold water on me, a life lesson hit me.
I spent most of my 20's with the mindset of now now now. I would fear that if I had a goal or a desire for my life and it didn't happen right then it wasn't ever going to happen. I would get very discouraged if things didn't work out according to my timeline. I was in a rush.
Now I realize everything I truly prayed for, worked towards and wanted to badly for actually did happen
but on God's time.
Which actually he has the best timing.
getting married, buying a house, babies, school, Disney, Julia, puppy, and a million more things.
I see now that having a summer spent at the pool never would have worked before now. toddlers and pools are a recipe for me to have a panic attack. Babysitting for others took up most of our time, financially we didn't have it and my girls swimming skills are now more confident that they don't need me right by their side the entire time.
I still have to fight the feelings of impatience.
I need to look at the blessings of the stages I am currently in. I need to recognize that each stage is preparing me for the next. God will answer my prayers in a way that is meant to be and it always ends up better than what I wanted.
I want a hobby farm. I want to get a great job teaching, I want to my husband to have more time away from work, I want to become a foster parent, I want to volunteer more, I want to go back to Africa.
but for now I will be content with having a summer packed of making memories at the pool!