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Wednesday, December 30, 2015

Looking back on 2015 (& slideshow!)

2015 is coming to an end!

      I look back and get the feeling that the year was full of little moments that filled up my heart full of gratitude. At the beginning of the year I was just ready for a new phase. I had spent the last Christmas season stressed and more stressed. so I made it a point to change my attitude and seek out things to be grateful for. since Photography is a huge outlet for me I decided to make my Instagram account become my gratitude journal. and every time a moment made me smile or made me feel like if "I don't take this picture I might forget this" I would snap.
      The next couple of months after that really showed me how big my bond is with each of my children. They each have so many special unique talents and personalities that help make up who they are and I just feel so blessed to be the one that gets to witness and cheer them on to be the best they can be. I will forever be their biggest fans. so of course they were the majority of my subjects of the photos.
       Shortly after the last new year, My beloved Grandma was told her cancer had came back and was spreading fast. She so bravely decided that we would leave the remaining time she had left in God's hands. So we spent as much time as we could with her. She taught me so much and has always been such an inspiration and influence in my life. It was hard to say goodbye and I am still catching myself wanting to call her up or plan a lunch date with her. I know she's with me and I am so grateful we had the time to say goodbye and I feel so honored to have had her in my life. 
         My husband and I had always wanted a bigger family and we decided a long time ago that we would do birthdays a little different. We would only throw birthday parties on the bigger milestone birthdays. This was for multiple reasons but a big one was because on money. well little did was know that because of timing we would have 3 milestone birthdays all in one year!! Plus we would have a baptism and 1st holy communion to celebrate also!! so this was the year of throwing parties and I for one am not a fan of hosting. so I am glad my kids were celebrated but I am also glad it's over and if my math is correct there should not be anymore years with this many parties........
         Over the summer I took on extra babysitting children and I do love my job and treasure these children and their parents that trust me with their little ones. But it was a hectic summer and I was excited for school to start and I could have some quieter days. So I cut back a lot on babysitting and right now my schedule is perfect. I feel so blessed to be home with my kids and still help contribute to our household.
          Belle finished up our home school preschool program and started kindergarten. she is doing so well! Her teacher even told us that if she could hand pick a kid to always be in her class she would pick Belle. She is making friends and has really become quite a fashionista. we are almost always running just shy of being late to class everyday because Belle has to make sure her outfit is beautiful. the life of have Girls. Julia is doing better after a rough patch but that is all behind us now and we have taken all the steps to help her succeed. I am so proud of all her hard work and how far she has come and wants to continue.
          Julia collected money and walked for the ALS foundation, all the girls collected almost 100 blankets for babies in Africa and we volunteered to serve elderly on Thanksgiving along with little acts of kindness throughout the year. We plan to do a lot more charity and helping of others next year. this is so extremely important to me to teach my children and it is such a high to give back. I just don't ever want to stop.
           We did have some hard news over the fall. Brian's company had to downsize a bit and since he was a newer hire he was on the list. they do have hopes of bring him back sometime but he is on the look out for something else also. My heart breaks because my husband loved this job so much and he feels a little down about the whole thing. I have made it my job to build him back up and be supportive and positive. we have been through way harder times and we will get through this one also. But I do confess that it has been so nice to have him home with us. we have gotten in so much extra family time and made so many good memories with him there that had he been working he more than likely would have missed out. 
            Our house and yard has had big changes over the year! we got new siding, gutters, we switched the girls rooms around so that Julia is now in her own room, Our garden was growing more than ever, our swing set got a new paint job, We spent so much time outside enjoying the sun. 
             Jerky hasn't changed much except his breaking out and running around the neighborhood has decreased. I think he's reaching old age and losing some energy. he will be 42 in dog years so that's old! Fleas this year has been kicking his butt and we are fighting hard to get rid of them! the Vet said because of the warm weather we have this winter the fleas are not dying and have been really bad around here. 
We did start a new journey and it's been so much fun for me to branch into doing more videos. my youtube channel is full of adventures and field trips we take, tips and tricks I do as a mom, wife, person, fun challenges and lots of super awkward crazy things that only happen to me. come check it out and please subscribe. I post every Tue, Thurs and sometimes during the weekend or just randomly. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCx4u7_gK-ujC7-1iy9cL6Xg
          

   For 2016 we don't have anything big really planned but opened for whats to come and continuing to work on the house and making more memories with the kids. 

             Here is my gratitude photography project all put together in a slideshow:
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Happy New Years!!!

Friday, December 4, 2015

Christmas card 2015

my top 5 favorite family traditions
Our Christmas card is high on the list!
It's just one thing I force my family to do and even though they would rather not they do it just to make me happy.
I spend lots of time like months and months in advance coming up with an idea. I try to do something that's not so overdone but I do get a lot of ideas from Pintrest or other photographers.

here is a look back at the years past
2010
 2011
 2012
2013
 2014

 This year I wanted to do something based off of my favorite holiday movie. plus we have just the right amount of kids to make it work.
Stay tuned to my Youtube channel to get a behind the scenes video, I will be posting this weekend of how we got this shot. and trust me this picture turned out WAY better than I thought it was based on what it took to make it happen. send me your address through email or PM it to me and I will send you the actual card, there will be a few extra pics of just the kids on it. 

Thank you family for putting on the fake smiles and posing just like a I asked. it really is all I want for Christmas and as much pain as you all can be or think I am I still truly believe we have a WONDERFUL life.

Tuesday, November 17, 2015

Photography fundraiser-Nominate a family!


I am so excited!!!!
I had to take last year off from doing a lot of my favorite Photography related projects due to adding to our family.
 This was one that I really struggled with. 
I have a passion in life to do whatever I can with whatever I have to help others.
It's one the most important lessons I want my children to learn and witness in me.
Here is a way I can combined all my loves in one.

 How it works. you let me know what photo you would like printed on an ornament. all photos must be a Chachi's Memories Photo (one I have taken.) due to copy right laws. you can order for a family member I have photographed and surprise them or just order from your own session. The cost is $25 the quality is amazing! it is metal with ribbon to hang! so these will last forever! here is the actual photos from my lab of what the ornaments will look like:
They really are beautiful and you will have in plenty of time for Christmas!

here is the best part!!!!
I don't want to make any money from this project. I have priced these ornament to cover the shipping cost but everything else will go directly to someone in need.
in the past I have donated to personal friends that put the money to very good use. medical bills, special needs car seat and food! 
This year I want your help to find the deserving family! please email me: chachimarie86@yahoo.com or message me on facebook: Kassondra Taylor or Chachismemories  
let me know who you think could really use this money and why! 
I hope to make a HUGE impact on someones Christmas this year So please share with all your friends and family.
Lets fill our trees with beautiful images of our loved ones and do some good at the same time!

Sunday, November 8, 2015

drugs, from my point of view.


I get told by well meaning people almost every time I am asked about Julia's birth mom that,
"She is so lucky she has you."
I understand why they say this and I am thankful for the kind words. but it's one of the things I hate hearing the most.
She is my daughter.
and there is nothing lucky about how that happened.
she goes through pain and hurt
insecurities and abandonment issues on a daily biases.
I found this while cleaning out her room last week.
We have been told by our counselor that for Julia it is best that we be as honest about her past as we feel appropriate.
 so I had a conversation with her.
 She was in music class earlier that day and a song reminded her of her birth mom and she started to cry. She was embarrassed and everyone was asking her what was wrong and she didn't want to tell them.   
she just doesn't understand why. why would the one person who was supposed to love her the most just not love her enough to be here with her.
 I don't know the answer but I encouraged her to continue to write in her journal. I kissed her head and told her I was proud of her and she is worthy and loved.
There is no hand book on how to help in these situations.  
I do know that I am not a prize. 
I am not a wonderful amazing saint.
she is not lucky.
it has nothing to do with luck
it's love.
Whether addiction is a disease or a choice,
I don't care.
I know my daughter is hurting and 
I am trying with all my might to help hold her broken pieces together.
because she is my daughter.
not by birth but by God's plan.
I didn't wake up and say hey I am going to come in and save the day!
because most of the time I don't.
I make mistakes  
God put her in my life to teach me
to make me a better person
to stretch me so thin that the only thing I can do is to lean on him for guidance and strength.
for love and support.
She is MY prize.
She calls me mom
she hugs me every night
she wants me when she is sick or lonely or needing to vent.
I get to be the one that watches her succeeded and learn and grow.
we have extremely hard times and she is a tough strong willed fighter.
but she is mine.





Sunday, November 1, 2015

Hazel's first birthday letter


Dear Hazel,
I have heard many times that God gives you the kind of children you need. 
You are exactly the perfect fit for that.
You are so laid back and content.
calm and happy.
The perfect combination of sweet and just a tad of sass.

 your first few months were spent rushing around for the holidays and sports and school events and lots of kids (ours and babysitting) and other things that just caused me to stress. I hated feeling like I was being pulled to do everything when the only thing I wanted to do was to sit with you and get to know you. You were a big part of helping me put my foot down and finally stop taking on too much. Thank you. I hope that I have started to make it up to you.
 this past year has gone way too fast. I am so proud of all you have accomplished and all the milestones you reached. everyday I can see your little mind growing and learning.
 I have a confession.
 I was never all that great at school and I feared that I would pass that to my kids and you would struggle. 
But even at this young age your daddy and I can tell that you study everything around you. 
you take it all in and you really try to figure things out. 
how it works 
why
how you can do it
then you do.
  I will never ever forget that moment of holding you with butterflies in my stomach as all three of your big sisters walked into the hospital room to meet you. The smiles one their faces and the oo's and aww's about how cute you were made me so happy BUT when Stella started crying saying
 "MY real baby Hazel?!?" 
over and over, I couldn't hold back my tears! 
It is the biggest pleasure and honor of my life to be able to bring you 4 together as sisters. They welcomed you into their club and you will always have each other no matter what.
you are pure joy.
another perfect piece to our family puzzle
the biggest Blue eyes every stranger has ever seen
the happiest alarm clock
give the best kisses at just the right time
your love with food
and our little brave monkey

I look forward to every day I get to spend with my little side kick.
I am so crazy in love with mama's girl!
This past year has been one to remember.

Happy 1st Birthday
Hazelnut
Winnie
Hazie
Haze
Hazel Gwendolyn Taylor.
love,
mommy
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