Korben's 2!

 It's so hard to believe that Mr. K man is 2!!

we knew we had to do something different and fun for his birthday pictures

Korben's parents are both race junkies and Korben didn't fall far from that tree. 

dirt bikes, motorcycles, four wheelers, race cars you name it they love it!

the morning of his pictures he spotted his mom sneaking his four wheeler into my van.

lets just say we couldn't get to the track fast enough for him :)

He truly is a miracle baby and the light of his mommy's life. I feel so lucky to know them and get those sweet hugs every time I see him :)

Happy Birthday Korben!

weening

Breast Feeding is the best!

here is the list of all the reasons I choose to Breast feed my two birth daughters (that sounds so funny to say)

When Belle was 8 months old I had to stop cold turkey.

I was on my way to Africa and as much research that I did to help prepare me for my trip I did absolutely none on the effects the immunizations would have on my breast milk.

 It was going to poison it.

seriously

 I had my doubts but

 after I had gotten the shots I went home and pumped and my milk was green!!! so Miss Belle was given formula.

This time around things are different.

I am not going to Africa and even though I am sad about that I was looking forward to breast feeding longer. 

Well that was until three little pearly white teeth broke threw the gums of my Stella Bug.

oouch!

I have tried all the tricks everyone suggested 

I told her no Biting! 

she smiled at me

I flicked her cheek 

big smile

I made her stop eating

smile

It's hard for me because now I am so nervous 

it feels like she's going to bite off my nipple she chops so hard

I talked it over with my momma

since she knows everything there is to know about breast feeding :P

I am going to slowly ween her 

we are starting off with one bottle at night for a week or two and then go from there.

But the problem is I feel like I am giving her powder fake processed milk.

I have so much guilt

I keep thinking I should just tough it out and let her bite me

but I can't, it hurts

now before all you formula feeding moms jump on my case

I am not saying your a bad mom for feeding your child formula from the start.

I just know the facts that breast milk is the best for both baby and mom

and my guilt is just me being me

I feel guilty about a lot of things I shouldn't 

like going to the grocery store by myself or buying myself new shoes instead of the kids a third pair

my hope is that 

things will get easier and just for now and for this reason only the next couple of months go fast so I can just give her regular cows milk and all this will go away.

phone updates

My husband likes to update my phone every once in a while. 

so I have to clear out my pictures when he does. last night he showed me how to get them off my phone and onto my laptop. 

I love my computer nerd so much :P

anyway when he did this he was shocked to find I had over 2oo pictures taken in the last three months....

"why does that surprise you?"

"it shouldn't I guess."

anyway here are just a few of the phone pictures

My flower bed is going to be SO pretty!

 Watching Basketball with Grandma

 

 Catching up on her gossip.

 Teaching her sister how to help with laundry.

 My girls. sometimes it's like pulling teeth to get a picture of them and sometimes they ASK me to take their picture

 

 We are making it a point to go out on date every month

 cheese!

 Jerky has always been a great loving family Dog but I think since Stella has come along he has really grown attached to her. He's never far from her.

 My Korben! Just love him to pieces!

 making me some lunch :)

 My cousin made it to the State finals! So proud of him.

 Stella sitting like a big girl in her high chair.

 she feel asleep like this lol

 we love our walks

 cheese!

 sad faces

She is not a  happy shopper.

There you have it. Phone photo bomb. hopefully the update on my phone will stop the random hanging up on everyone that calls me.... sorry. But if not then another update on my phone and  look for another photo bomb soon. I already have four pictures on there and it's only been 6 hours.

good friday

It's Good Friday!

Jesus died for us today. 

it's something I was taught at a very young age and something that I always keep in mind.

His sacrifice

his pain

but today on good Friday it always feels a little more real. 

I wake up in my comfy bed listening to my family rustling around getting ready for the day and I wonder what did Jesus do that morning? 

I change dirty diapers, fix lunch, let the dog outside, put up Julia from school, do the dishes

but all the while i am playing the events of Jesus carrying his cross

falling down, getting spit on, yelled at and rocks thrown at him.

he was stripped naked, nailed, and stabbed in the side

I think about the pain Mary was feeling as she watched her son go through this.

I look at my daughters and can't imagine.

but as sad and painful today is

three days later

He comes back!

Happy Easter! 

I hope you enjoy it and spend lots of good happy times with the ones you love.

I think I have the best eater egg of them all :)

walking dead

So I have a little addiction

if we are friends on Facebook then you already know this :)

and if you are not watching then you better figure out a way to watch it! 

yes it's about zombie apocalypse and usually things like that  just seem stupid to me (like vampires and wizards i just roll my eyes it's so fake and sci-fi)

but there is this guy....

and this baby.....

o and this guy....

I think he looks a lot like this guy......

but seriously this weekend is the season finale and as much as I can't wait for it-I don't want it to be over.